tHe sTate oF Me......WorKIng On It thOUgH

have you ever felt like you don't know yourself after years of thinking you did? or maybe my paranoid mind is playing tricks on me an i really do know myself but just need to be reminded. Being in a place where all you see is people looking at you through blinker doesnt work for me. Being in this place kills me everyday. sometimes i dont know what to do, it leaves me so confussed about myself, but then again is the problem really with me or the people that have the problem with me or is it just nothing at all...and thats life it is always that nothing at all bit

"Gather round my wealthy friends
And endure the horrifying sights
Only your worst nightmares can produce
Actual human beings of a deformed nature
Come at once
And come and enduldge yourself
In our own twisted amusement of
Another's misfortune
Yes ladies and gentlemen
Enter our three ring show of freaks"

Paranoia
Paranoia is an unfounded or exaggerated distrust of others, sometimes reaching delusional proportions

Causes and symptoms
The exact cause of paranoia is unknown. Potential causal factors may be genetics, neurological abnormalities, changes in brain chemistry, and stress. Paranoia is also a possible side effect of drug use and abuse (for example, alcohol, marijuana, amphetamines, cocaine, PCP). Acute, or short term, paranoia may occur in some individuals overwhelmed by stress. The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, fourth edition (DSM-IV), the diagnostic standard for mental health professionals in the United States, lists the following symptoms for paranoid personality disorder:

• suspicious; unfounded suspicions; believes others are plotting against him/her
  
• preoccupied with unsupported doubts about friends or associates
  
• reluctant to confide in others due to a fear that information may be used against him/her
  
• reads negative meanings into innocuous remarks
  
• bears grudges
  
• perceives attacks on his/her reputation that are not clear to others, and is quick to counterattack
  
• maintains unfounded suspicions regarding the fidelity of a spouse or significant other