rEAliTy...another of my shyt poems

[REALITY]

In The reflection of the blue light moon,
I transfer my identity if ever so inflicted,
To this tragic illusion of night...
Transposing itself onto my waters reflection...
The brilliant radience of the moment captures me,
It pierces my soul and holds me...
Conquering me in this unrealistic but necessary voyage,
Resisting ...
Yet giving myself entirely, I relentlessly undertake..
Happening but not,
I am engulfed...
For each second of my absent yet totally meaningfull existance...
I am abandoned in reality....

gANja mAStEr........

sHAme.........

sWeEt dReAmS....

ARTIST : Marylin Manson
SONG : Sweet Dreams



Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?

Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused
Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?

Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused
I wanna use you and abuse you
I wanna know what's inside you

(Whispering) Hold your head up, movin' on
Keep your head up, movin' on
Hold your head up, movin' on
Keep your head up, movin' on
Hold your head up, movin' on
Keep your head up, movin' on
Movin' on!

Sweet dreams are made of this
Who am I to disagree?
Travel the world and the seven seas
Everybody's looking for something
Some of them want to use you
Some of them want to get used by you
Some of them want to abuse you
Some of them want to be abused

I'm gonna use you and abuse you
I'm gonna know what's inside
Gonna use you and abuse you
I'm gonna know what's inside you

sPAghetTi SaUCe......

vOid.........

[Void]

if empathy swallows disgust, than despair has to eat passion...
The collective unconscious of the whole is ending, but always beginning
An icy mystic reveals intimate feelings of rage and mistrust,
A sensual push...
elapsed between the hunger of desire and fright
Quenched yet aching,
released deep within the agony of remembrance
Visions of silken ecstasy whisper her name and violate her mind
Scattered obsessions blur,
confused and conformed...
mesmerized
Consumed by the shivering flesh overtaking her body,
her heart, her soul...
A lustful quiver, releasing the hidden torment and craving
the moist touches of perpetual love,
dreaming and seeing and feeling,
exactly what she needs...
Let us touch the shattered glass that penetrates her existence,
Engulfed again in the mirror that is resting on her angel's wing...

aLL mY LifE.......

ARTIST : Foo Fighters
SONG : All My Life

All my life Ive been searching for somethin
Somethin never comes, never leads to nuthin
Nothin satisfies, but Im gettin close
Closer to the prize at the end of the rope

All night long I dream of the day
When it comes around, and its takinaway
Leaves me with the feelin that I fear the most
Feel it come to life when I see your ghost

Calm down, dont you resist
Your such a delicate rist
And if I give it a twist
Somethin to hold when I lose my grip

Will I find something in there,
To give it just what it needs
Another reason to bleed
One by one, hidden up my sleeve

One by one, hidden up my sleeve

Hey, dont let it go to waste
I love it but, I hate that taste
Weight keeping me down

Will I find the believer
Another one who believes
Another one to decieve
Over and over, down on my knees

If I get any closer, i
And if you open up wide
And if you let me inside
On and on, Ive got nuthin to hide

On and on Ive got nuthin to hide

Hey, dont let it go to waste
I love it but, I hate that taste
Weight keeping me down

All my life Ive been searching for somethin
Somethin never comes, never leads to nuthin
Nothin satisfies, but Im gettin close
Closer to the prize at the end of the rope

All night long I dream of the day
When it comes around, and its takinaway
Leaves me with the feelin that I feel the most
Feel it come to life when I see your ghost

Done, done; on to the next one
Done, done, and Im on to the next one
Done, done, and Im on to the next one

tHe Crow....bRiLliAnt mOviE

[Quote]

"It can't rain all the time" - Eric Draven

[REVIEW]

The streets of Detroit are rain-slickened and littered with filth, smoky fires burn in the distance, and daylight never seems to come in the industrial slum where a street waif named Sarah lives, and where her two best friends, rock star Eric Draven and his fiancee Shelley Webster, are murdered.

It is said that when a man dies wrongfully, a crow may bring him back to life to seek vengeance upon his killers. A year after Eric and Shelley have been laid to rest, Eric returns from the grave, clawing his way up from the ground. He's met by a crow perched on his headstone. The crow is Eric's guide between the worlds of the living and the dead. Eric, after painting his face, prowls the streets in search of the vicious lowlifes who killed he and Shelley. The killers are a group of men known as T-Bird, Skank, Tin Tin, and Funboy. Wrapped in patent leather and chrome, his hair an unruly nest, the invincible Eric starts killing them one by one. Eric's search for vengeance leads to Top Dollar, the local crime boss who masterminded Eric and Shelley's murders. Top Dollar and his lover Myca rule the slums. Eric crosses paths with Sarah and good cop Albrecht. Top Dollar kidnaps Sarah, and then Myca captures the crow, sapping Eric's unnatural powers. They hole up in a gothic church, and Eric must use the last of his strength to rescue Sarah from Myca and Top Dollar

mAgGiEs FaRm........

ARTIST : Rage Against The Machine
SONG : Maggie's Farm


I ain't gonna work on Maggie's farm no more.
No, I ain't gonna work on Maggie's farm no more
Well, I wake up in the morning
Fold my hands and pray for rain.
I got a head full of ideas
That are drivin' me insane
It's a shame
the way she makes me
scrub the floor
I ain't gonna work on, nah
I ain't gonna work on Maggie's farm no more.
I ain't gonna work for Maggie's brother no more
nah, I ain't gonna work for Maggie's brother no more
Well, he hands you a nickel
And he hands you a dime
And he asks you with a grin
If you're havin' a good time
Then he fines you every time you slam the door
I ain't gonna work for, nah
I ain't gonna work for Maggie's brother no more

I ain't gonna work for Maggie's pa no more
No, I ain't gonna work for Maggie's pa no more
Well, he puts his cigar
Out in your face just for kicks
His bedroom window
It is made out of bricks
The National Guard stands around his door
I ain't gonna work, nah
I ain't gonna work for Maggie's pa no more
I ain't gonna work for Maggie's ma no more
No, I ain't gonna work for Maggie's ma no more
Well, she talks to all the servants
About man and God and law
And everybody says
Shes the brains behind pa
Shes sixty-eight, but she says shes twenty-four
I ain't gonna work for, nah
I ain't gonna work for Maggie's ma no more

I ain't gonna work on Maggie's farm no more
No, I ain't gonna work on Maggie's farm no more
Well I try my best
To be just like I am
But everybody wants you
To be just like them
They sing while they slave and just get bored
I ain't gonna work on, nah

hUnGrY?

yOur.......

Your haunting face parades my dreams,
deep and dark as the devil’s heart.
red with the blood of innocence.
Your bellowing voice destroys my thoughts,
penetrating my very soul.
welcoming my complete and utter fear.
Your spider like touch wakes my submission,
drenched in wet crimson,
bringing forth my undying weakness.
Your presence overwhelms by still-beating heart,
silhouettes curl around my body.
pulling the strings of my weak life line.
SeTh

wHy aRe yOu SitTinG ?

wHy dOn't yOu aNd I ?

ARTIST : Santana feat. Chad Kruger
SONG : Why Dont You And I

Since the moment I spotted you
Like walking round with little wings on my shoes
My stomach's filled with the butterflies...ooo and it's alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I'm never going to come down
If I said I didn't like it then you know I'd lied ooo

[Chorus:]
Everytime I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right

[Chorus:]
So I'll say why don't you and I get together and take on the world
and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never going to let me in

When's this fever going to break?
I think I've handled more than any man can take
I'm like a love-sick puppy chasing you around ooo
And it's alright
Bouncing round from cloud to cloud
I got the feeling like I'm never going to come down
If said I didn't like it then you know I'd lied ooo

Every time I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right

So I'll say why don't you and I get together and take on the world
and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never going to let me in

Slowly I begin to realize this is never going to end
Right about the same you walk by
And I say 'Oh here we go again' Oh
Everytime I try to talk to you
I get tongue-tied
Turns out everything I say to you
Comes out wrong and never comes out right

So I'll say why don't you and I get together and take on the world
and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never going to let me in

So I'll say why don't you and I get together and take on the world
and be together forever
Heads we will and tails we'll try again
So I say why don't you and I hold each other and fly to the moon
and straight on to heaven
Cause without you they're never going to let me in

fOk...

Quote of the day

There are as many nights as days, and the one is just as long as the other in the year's course. Even a happy life cannot be without a measure of darkness, and the word 'happy' would lose its meaning if it were not balanced by sadness.
Carl Jung

bUt I nEed yOu . . . yEs I dO

ARTIST : Blur

Song : Song 2

I got my head checked By a jumbo jet It wasnt easy But nothing is, no When I feel heavy metal And Im pins and Im needles Well I lie and Im easy All of the time but Im never sure when I need you Pleased to meet you I got my head done When I was young Its not my problem Its not my problem When I feel heavy metal And Im pins and Im needles Well I lie and Im easy All of the time but Im never sure when I need you Pleased to meet you Yeah, yeah Yeah, yeah Yeah, yeah Oh, yeah

biG cITy Life....

ARTIST : Mattafix
SONG : Big City Life


Big City Life,
Me try fi get by,
Pressure nah ease up no matter how hard me try.
Big City Life,
Here my heart have no base,
And right now Babylon de pon me case.

People in a show,
All lined in a row.
We just push on by,
Its funny,
How hard we try.

Take a moment to relax.
Before you do anything rash.

Don't you wanna know me?,
Be a friend of mine.
I'll share some wisdom with you.
Don't you ever get lonely,
From time to time
Don't let the system get you down

Soon our work is done,
All of us one by one.
Still we live our lives,
As if all this stuff survives.

I take a moment to relax,
Before I do anything rash.

The Linguist across the seas and the oceans,
A permanent Itinerant is what I;ve chosen.
I find myself in Big City prison, arisen from the vision of man kind.
Designed, to keep me discreetly neatly in the corner,
you'll find me with the flora and the fauna and the hardship.
Back a yard is where my heart is still I find it hard to depart this Big City Life.

cEllPhONes..

i really dislike telefone conversations cause there is always miscommunication, but hey when all it takes is the sound of someones voice to pick you uup waht can you do, sori for that babe,not having ciggies too is shyt, cause yestrdy i only smoked 3 till round 8pm last night...hey b do you remember this one, its a bit hazy but it was taken after a night of parting..dont we look wasted....outside our second home

LuCky mAn...

ARTIST : The Verve
SONG : Lucky Man

Happiness
More or less
It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
Oh, my, my
Happiness
Coming and going
I watch you look at me
Watch my fever growing
I know just where I am

But how many corners do I have to turn?
How many times do I have to learn
All the love I have is in my mind?

But I'm a lucky man
With fire in my hands

Happiness
Something in my own place
I'm stood here naked
Smiling, I feel no disgrace
With who I am

Happiness
Coming and going
I watch you look at me
Watch my fever growing
I know just who I am

But how many corners do I have to turn?
How many times do I have to learn
All the love I have is in my mind?

I hope you understand
I hope you understand

Gotta love that'll never die

Happiness
More or less
It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
Happiness
Coming and going
I watch you look at me
Watch my fever growing
I know
Oh, my, my
Oh, my, my
Oh, my, my
Oh, my, my

Gotta love that'll never die
Gotta love that'll never die
No, no
I'm a lucky man

It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
Oh, my, my
Oh, my, my
It's just a change in me
Something in my liberty
Oh, my, my
Oh, my, my

wiFe aNd kiDS...

fELL iN lOve With a GirL

ARTIST : The White Stripes

SONG : Fell In Love With A Girl

Fell in love with a girl
fell in love once and almost completely
she's in love with the world
but sometimes these feelings
can be so misleading
she turns and says "are you alright?"
I said "I must be fine cause my heart's still beating"
She says "come and kiss me by the riverside,
bobby says it's fine he don't consider it cheating"

Black hair with a curl
mellow roll for the flavor
and the eyes for peeping
can't keep away from the girl
these two sides of my brain
need to have a meeting
can't think of anything to do
my left brain knows that
all love is fleeting
she's just looking for something new
and I said it once before
but it bears repeating

aNOther Day....

Patients is a virtue, never really understood it till now. Let the chips fall where they may that’s it…I am a little frustrated with my current living situation, but that will soon be sorted out…my life is slowly coming together and I think its mainly due to one person, thank you babe you are the one that always understood. And I know I can be such an ahole at times most of the time, but im learning to accept that and I am trying to right all the wrongs I have done…but not without you okay…

Work sucks cause once again im am the one doing all the work but that’s kool…atleast its work hey. Being broke is shyt, but that life other than that I think I can give a sigh of relief.

I dnt know if any of you guys have ever been in love, cause I would highly recommend it, it one of the most beautiful feeling one could ever feel…kinda like a Muse song . When in love you are able to feel a whole spectrum of feelings. The want to love an be loved in return to me is the most vulnerable thing one can do and I think that that the key to love the ability to be a complete idiot as well as a god all at the same time…brilliant.

tODay...

ARTIST : Smashing Pumpkins
SONG : TOday

Today is the greatest
Day I ve ever kown
Cant live for tomorrow
Tomorrows much too long
I burn my eyes out
Before I get out

I wanted more
Than life could ever grant
Bored by the chore
Of saving face

Today is the greatest
Day I have ever known
Cant wait for tomorrow
I might not have that long
Ill tear my heart out
Before I get out

Pink ribbon scars
That never forget
Ive tried so hard
To cleanse these regrets
My angel wings
Were bruised and restrained
My belly stings

Today is
Today is
Today is
The greatest day
That I have ever known

I want to turn you on
I want to turn you round
I want to turn you on
I want to turn you

Today is the greatest
Today is the greatest day
Today is the greatest day
That I have ever known

iTs beEn aWhiLe

shyt its been a while since my last blog, but alot has happened since then, im back at home, looking for a job as usual, back with the love of my life, and have some clarity and for once im happy, thank you babe for coming back into my life, im mis without you really,

i promise to update properly ssoon, but just wanted to say im still around, kool