itS bEen mORe liKe a cOUple oF MonThS........

Yes im back and ill bee here for a while so speak to you guys soon.......its good to be back

ARTIST : System Of A Down
SONG : Lonely Day Lyrics

Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Should be banned
This day that I can't stand

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life

Such a lonely day
Shouldn't exist
A day that Ill never miss
Such a lonely day
And its mine
The most loneliest day of my life

And if you go, I wanna go with you
And if you die, I wanna die with you

Take your hand and walk away

The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
The most loneliest day of my life
Life

Such a lonely day
And its mine
A day that I'm glad I survived

me..........

i have been so detatched from the rest of the world lately, my girlfriwnd, familly, friends and jod situation but i guess i just need to lighten up that sould help shouldnt it....but ill be back soon...

UNDER CONSTRUCTION

tRuth.......

The beauty of life is that everything has its place be it small or big, but in actually fact even the smallest place influences the the bigger things. our influence on people known or unknown is so vast that we could never keep tract of it, so in essence nothing you do really matters cause it matters so much, hence the reason we find relationships and interaction with people cause that gives us some sort of direction to what we decide matters to us, i know i'm not really making much of a point here, but ill get there soon. love, hate, pain, despair are all parts of life that can never be avoided. there is no right and wrong only truth and even with truth we decide the extent to which that truth is true to use...i guess all i'm trying to say is don't pre-determine the future but instead experience it as it happens,

if you take the time at the end of today and list all the new experiences you have had, be it the smallest of things, you'd realise how much you have actually lived on a mundane day like today..........[SeTh]

Let mERCy cOMe........

In this farewell, There’s no blood, There’s no alibi. 'Cause I’ve drawn regret, From the truth, Of a thousand lies. So let mercy come, And wash away… What I’ve Done. I’ll face myself, To cross out what I’ve become. Erase myself, And let go of what I've done. Put to rest, What you thought of me. While I clean this slate, With the hands, Of uncertainty. So let mercy come, And wash away… What I’ve Done. I’ll face myself, To cross out what I’ve become. Erase myself, And let go of what I've done. For What I’ve Done I start again, And whatever pain may come. Today this ends, I’m forgiving what I’ve done. I’ll face myself, To cross out what I’ve become. Erase myself, And let go of what I’ve done. What I’ve done. Forgiving What I’ve Done.

jUst CuRiOuS............

WHAT INSPIRES YOU?

f#ck WoNderLaNd.......(aLice?)

fLip rEAlIty........

a million stars in the sky
a million answers to a question no one knows
i feel a world away from everyone
isolated and dragged down
sitting in the shadows watching others
wanting something more
loved and adored
but ugliness is in me....twisting things
paranoid illusions making me this way
i need to hide...cant let them see me
sometimes i run,
but there’s nowhere to go...
so i create an alternate reality...
wanna come see?...............[SeTh]

diSiNtEgRaTiOn.........

bLoOd & fLeSh.........

My life is art untainted by reality
blood the paint and flesh canvas
knives are paintbrushes in my fingers
i pick away at it
like a scab that never heals
burning in my brain
are the images unknown
that im trying to create
how it should really be(to me that is)
monsterous distorted deformed
beauty to be seen
i wash the blood from my hands
and tighten my stiches
my work is done.......[SeTh]

MiRiCLe.........

jiMmY bOy's fiRSt SWiMmiNg LeSsOn........

LitHiuM.........

I'm so happy. Cause today I found my friends.
They're in my head. I'm so ugly. But that's ok.
'Cause so are you. We've broke our mirrors.
Sunday morning. Is everyday for all I care.
And I'm not scared. Light my candles. In a daze cause I've found god.

Yeah yeah yeah yeah.....

I'm so lonely. And that's ok. (alt: 'cause today )
I shaved my head. And I'm not sad, and just maybe
I'm to blame for all I've heard. And I'm not sure.
I'm so excited. I can't wait to meet you there.
And I don't care. I'm so horny. But that's ok. My will is good.

Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah.....

(Chorus) I like you. I'm not gonna crack.
I miss you. I'm not gonna crack. I love you.
I'm not gonna crack. I kill you. I'm not gonna crack. (x2)

I'm so happy. Cause today I found my friends.
They're in my head. I'm so ugly. But that's ok.
'Cause so are you. We've broke our mirrors.
Sunday morning. Is everyday for all I care.
And I'm not scared. Light my candles.
In a daze cause I've found god.

Yeah yeah yeah yeah.....

jiMmY bOy.......sHAMe

mY CaNVAs........

your love is like body paint
its sticky and thick
and covers me like gods eyes.
i'd like to cover your body with paint...
reds and golds to show my passion.
and bloods and tears to show my sorrow.
i want to use glitter
to show the sparkle in your eyes.
i want to wrap you in silk for a watery impression
and use the texture of lust to hold you in close proximity.
i want our wet sex on the trampeline
to show on your skin like evidence
becuase you are the most beautiful canvas
and i want to make you my art.

wARNinG...............

brEAkiNg tHe hABbiT.................

Memories consume Like opening the wound I'm picking me apart again You all assume I'm safe here in my room Unless I try to start again I don't want to be the one The battles always choose' Cause inside I realize That I'm the one confused I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this wayI know it's not alright So I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit TonightClutching my cure I tightly lock the door I try to catch my breath again I hurt much more Than anytime before I had no options left again I dont want to be the one The battles always choose 'Cause inside I realize That I'm the one confused I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream I don't know why I instigate And say what I don't mean I don't know how I got this way I'll never be alright So, I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit Tonight I'll paint it on the walls 'Cause I'm the one at fault I'll never fight again And this is how it ends I don't know what's worth fighting for Or why I have to scream But now I have some clarity to show you what I mean I don't know how I got this way I'll never be alright So, I'm breaking the habit I'm breaking the habit I’m breaking the habit Tonight

pLAy dEAd.....

wAitIng........

Running in circles
Chasing her invisible tail
Her cat eyes intent
On finding something that isn't there.

Running ahead
Traveling down a neverending path
Her tired breath striving
To reach the end of a road with no end.

Running through space
Floating around lost in an infinite universe
Her white fingertips reaching out
For the end that will never come.

Awaiting death
Wandering through life
Her empty body waiting
For an end that shall never come.

Sad bUnNy.....

bLACk & whITe........

Black hair
Black dress
Black necklaces
Black shoes...
Pale brown eyes, fierce as the sun itself.

Red lips
Red fingernails
Red thoughts
Red blood...
Smeared over gleaming white fangs.

Dark thoughts
Dark life
Dark nights
Dark days
Pale smooth virgin flesh.

A frowning world
A frowning victim
Frowning tears
A frowning death...

A wide vampire smile of white and red,
under the solar eclipse.

aNGel................

Riding through my nightmares,
I watch the angels die,
And I know I’m not one of them,
I laugh in the trees of time.
I lie awake dreaming,
Of all the things to come.
I walk outside,
And see you there.
My dieing angels gone.

.........................................................................[SeTh]

hAPpy eNd.....

What is horror? Is it the realization of your potential for madness? Is it seeing someone you deeply care about turn into a freak, an enemy? In our days of cheap TV, comic book entertainment, horror is no longer a monster lurking in the shadows, ready to tear our throats apart. To this, you are prepared. It’s so CASUAL, it’s something we’ve seen on the screen. The concept of a monster, no matter how horrid, implies the necessity for a hero, the inevitability of “HAPPY END” written in block capitals when the credits roll....signifing the end.

bROken rAPtuRe.........

Love is nothing but a meager notion
An illusion your own mind creates
Leading to pain and sanity's erosion
Leaving you in a cold and broken state

You rip your own heart to pieces
Committing your own unintentional suicide
The painful and sinister virus seizes
To reality your eyes become blind

Everyone catches this disease of love
Dieing a little each night,never getting away
To your mind and soul it becomes destructive
You're unconsciously led astray

My ignorance was certianly bliss
Although I know the dark truth,

You held me through the rapture of my dreams
lips reminding me of what was real when I screamed
The words 'I Love You' telling me that you cared

mANGa pORn?

diD mY tiMe...........

Realized I can never win
Sometimes feel like I have failed
Inside where do I begin?
My mind is laughing at me

Tell me, why am I to blame?
Aren't we supposed to be the same?
That's why I will never tame
This thing thats burning in me

Sometimes I can never tell
If I got something after me
That's why I just beg and plead
For this curse to leave me

Tell me, why am I to blame?
Aren't we supposed to be the same?
That's why I will never tame
This thing thats burning in me

I am the one who chose my path
I am the one who couldn't last
I feel the life pulled from me
I feel the anger changing me

Betrayed
I feel so
Enslaved
I really tried
I did my time

Oh god the anger's changing me

i LiKe..........

dAWn ArRiVEs......

Darkness envelops my weakened soul
Sculptured by pain and dishonesty
Scorched and seared by flames of my making
Seamless entities dance before my hollow eyes
Screams and sounds of breaking hearts and bones
Voices beseeching - no mercy given
It seems my fate is sealed
My living hell becomes my home
Partake in torturing my inner soul

Awakened now by breaking dawn
As light pours forth it's beams so pure
Blinding, yet a source of renewed strength
Another day to find a way
To take back my enslaved soul..
To live another day.

gOt thE LiFe......

Hate, something, sometime, someway,
something kick off the front floor.
Mine? Something, inside.
I'll never ever follow.
So give.. me.. some.. thing.. that.. is.. for.. real.
I'll never ever follow.
Get your boogie on...
Hate, something, someway, each day, dealing with no forgive no.
Why? This shyt inside.
Now everyone will follow.
So give.. me.. noth.. ing.. just.. feel.
And now this shyt will follow.
God pains me, the more I see the life, who wants to see?
God told me, I've already got the life, oh I say...
God pains me, the more I see the life, who wants to see?
God told me, I've already got the life, oh I say...
Each day I can feel it swallow, inside something they took from me.
I don't feel your deathly ways.
Each day i feel so hollow, inside always beating me,
You'll never see, so come dance with me.
Dance with me

LAte...........

tWiLiGht............

Blindness...sickening pain
Excruciating love, standing in the rain
Putrid acid smell...Creeping nighttime sounds
Relentless screeching hounds
I think I must have fell
Grieving guilt...comfort in the dark
Innate loneliness suffered at the sight
Is that a light burning bright
Deep into the night
Penetrate my soul...this time I have to know
The reason, the reason for the light
Just standing in the right
Basking in the glory unfound
Tis twilight....that's all

sUCcUbuS.....

a pEOm bY Seth & rESh.........

cYcle(negative vs positive)

Dark pools of blood drip and ooze
slowly so slowly
down beautiful curves of legs
wounding its way ever so slowly.
So disgusting so vile
pain befriends this dark red liquid

Beautiful vermilion ,scarlet,
so sacred, so hated.
The scent of my sex shadows me
My sexuality, my peace, me
My sexuality,
My cycle.

The end is
the begining
Is the end.

whO sAid fiSh hAve nO pErsOnaLity......

7 ClaSsiC mOViEs......whATs yOUrs?

a SHoRt n' sWeEt eND....

red is passion
red is rage
red is the blood that stains this page
from my jagged new smile
my ragged torn throat
came the ink that was used to write this note
do not be frightened
do not be scared
for i leave behind no one who cared

hEre tO StAy......

This time, taking it away
I've got a problem
With me getting in the way
Not by design
So I take my face and bash it into a mirror
I won't have to see the pain (bleed, bleed)

This state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating
Anticipating all the fuked up feelings again

The hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far
All this time I've been waiting
Oh I cannot grieve anymore
For once inside awaking
I'm done, I'm not a whore
You've taken everything
and, Oh I cannot give anymore

My mind's done with this
Okay, I've got a question
Can I throw it all away?
Take back what's mine
So I take my time, guiding the blade down the line
Each cut closer to the vein (Pain, Pain)

This state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating
Anticipating all the fuked up feelings again

The hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far
All this time I've been waiting
Oh I cannot grieve anymore
For once inside awaking
I'm done, I'm not a whore
You've taken everything
and, Oh I cannot give anymore

I'm here to stay (bring it down)
I'm here to stay (bring it down)
I'm here to stay
Bring it down
Bring it down
Gonna break it down
Gonna break it down
GONNA BREAK IT!

This state is elevating, as the hurt turns into hating
Anticipating all the fuked up feelings again

The hurt inside is fading
This shit's gone way too far
All this time I've been waiting
Oh I cannot grieve anymore
For once inside awaking
Oh God, I'm not a whore
You've taken everything
and, Oh I cannot give anymore

Give anymore
Give anymore

mEMOriEs fORgoTten.........

Oh what words we write
swirling in our minds,
Like autumn's leaves
on a crisp black pond,
Sinking into the darkness
as our words will be forgotten.

Oh the things we will speak
phrases flowing from our mouths,
Dripping from our tongues
soothing some, burning others,
Like acid eating at their heads
wrecking where their words first formed.

Oh what time we'll waste
staring in the mirror,
Wondering what will change
and what will stay the same,
Holding on to memories
that have long faded away.

LiGht a MaTch.......RATM

Greed
Causing innocent blood to flow
Entire culture lost in the overthrow
They came to see, take whatever they please
Then all they gave back was death and disease

People were left with no choice but to decide
To conform to a system responsible for genocide
Responsible for genocide, Responsible for genocide

AIDS is killing the entire African nation
And a vaccine is still supposedly under preparation
But these governments, they don't mind the procrastination.
They say we'll kill them off, take their land and go there for vacation

My peoples' culture was strong and was pure
And if not for that white greed, it would have endured
My people were left with no choice but to decide
To conform to a system

Their minds enslaved
Their souls encaged
You feel the rage
This brutality can never be undone
But the sun has not yet set
The bass and drums and microphone a threat
That's when you've got to get the cry from the inside
And see that they're responsible for genocide
Responsible for genocide, Responsible for genocide

You jam your culture down my throat
Say I'm inferior when upon it I choke
You fill my mind with a false sense of history
And then you wonder why I have no identity

We'll strike a match and it'll catch
And spread the insight we need
A tiny fire burning bright
Shedding light on the darkness of greed

Yes, yes y'all, and you don't stop
Shedding light on the darkness of greed

wAR on WAr............

dARk dReAMs..........

Darkness envelops my weakened soul
Sculptured by pain and dishonesty,
Scorched and seared by flames of my making
Seamless entities dance before my hollow eyes,
Screams and sounds of breaking hearts and bones
Voices beseeching - no mercy given,
It seems my fate is sealed
My living hell becomes my home,
Partake in torturing my inner soul

Awakened now by breaking dawn
As light pours forth it's beams so pure,
Blinding, yet a source of renewed strength
Another day to find a way,
To take back my enslaved soul..
To live another day.

eMbRacE........

oVer zEALouS.....

Flowing freely through my veins
Taste the desire taste the pain
Pull in slowly towards the wound
Casting shadows from the moon
Walk away quickly before you want more
The feeling is stronger than even before
The heat of temptation beats like a drum
Have to have more, body is numb
Wanting to abandon this feeling inside
Too late to have realized there's nowhere to hide
Part of this scheme now, nowhere to go
Sit back and enjoy, it's a hell of a show.
............................... [SeTh]

hOw I fEeL.......

dARkNeSs.......

Fear not the darkness, my love,
For I am the abyss,
The eater of souls,
The moth macabre of your wildest nightmares.
But cross through to the other side, you will see
I am the illuminator,
The bringer of joy,
A glorious stained glass butterfly
Sent to charm you.
I color the shadows,
I make them dance.
Come drown in my love.
Spread your wings and become one
With me and the night.

tHe NoBoDieS......

"I cry my tears of acid burning at my face
that has been drained of all life,
So similar to the rest of me the pain that
hides between the lines has so fluently gone,
Does anyone see the Blindness that is
contained in one single "BEING?"
But then again you are not one to offend you.
I know what others do, not that others ignore as
though it was simplistic that it was not
important enough to even exist.
Though it is creeping up into your life
and will one day be the center of all destruction
Hypothetically speaking of course.
Have you ever been to oblivion
for those who don't know inform yourself
"that is real, that is all, that is there"
When you wake up from the dreams you
have of waking up and living a life that can't
be lived. Xtreem it is but to whom not you for
do you care does anyone
but the nobodies then again who are the nobodies?

bLAck.......

The color of Evil

The color of All colors

The color of Nothing

The color of Death

-Black-

The color of Retchedness

The color of Emptiness

The color of Dirtiness

The color of my Soul

-Black-

oNe OF tHoSe Fu#kiNg dAYs......

Its just one of those days
When you don't wanna wake up
Everything is fuked
Everybody sux
You don't really know why
But want justify
Rippin' someone's head off
No human contact
And if you interact
Your life is on contract
Your best bet is to stay away motherfuker
It's just one of those days!!


Its all about the he says she says bullshyt
I think you better quit
Lettin' shyt slip
Or you'll be leavin with a fat lip
Its all about the he says she says bullshyt
I think you better quit talkin that shyt
(Punk, so come and get it)
Its just one of those days
Feelin' like a freight train
First one to complain
Leaves with a blood stain
Damn right I'm a maniac
You better watch your back
Cuz I'm fukin' up your program
And if your stuck up
You just lucked up
Next in line to get fuked up
Your best bet is to stay away motherfuker
Its just one of those days!!

I feel like shyt
My suggestion is to keep your distance cuz right now im dangerous
We've all felt like shyt
And been treated like shyt
All those motherfukers that want to step up
I hope you know I pack a chain saw
I'll skin your ass raw
And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break somethin' tonight...
I hope you know I pack a chain saw
I'll skin your arse raw
And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break somethin' tonight...
I hope you know I pack a chain saw
I'll skin your arse raw
And if my day keeps goin' this way I just might break your fukin' face tonight!!
Give me somethin' to break
How bout your fukin' face
I hope you know I pack a chain saw, what!!..

nAKed..........

jUst iMAGine.....nEVer WiLL hApPen tHOuGh.....

Imagine there's no Heaven It's easy if you try No hell below us Above us only sky Imagine all the people Living for today Imagine there's no countries It isn't hard to do Nothing to kill or die for And no religion too Imagine all the people Living life in peace You may say that I'm a dreamer But I'm not the only one I hope someday you'll join us And the world will be as one Imagine no possessions I wonder if you can No need for greed or hunger A brotherhood of man Imagine all the people Sharing all the world You may say that I'm a dreamer But I'm not the only one I hope someday you'll join us And the world will live as one

-fAde oUT EteRniTy-

Mother earth shrieks in agony.
We pierce her with thousands of daggers...
tipped with the poison of our ignorance,
our lust for more.
I weep for her.
Slowly she crumbles... we turn a blind eye.
I begin to think we just can't help ourselves.
We are too weak.
We will soon immerse her in eternal flames,
and reduce our pathetic existence
into which it came,
unto dust.
Smile little one... we all knew it was inevitable...
After all...
We are all just food for the worms...

sUPer jERk.....

it BeEn AgEs

hey guy its been almost a week since my last upadate been really sick but im back now ....

Ode tO sOCieTy.......

Dude, Where’s your hat?
Dude, Where’s your shirt?
Dude, Where’s your mind?
Dude, Where’s your god?
Dude, Where’s your guns?
Dude, Where’s your government?
Dude, Where's your life?
Dude, are you alright?
..............................SeTh

AiN't tHat cUte?

LUis rOYo

Prohibited(really like this one)

For all you guys into gothic style art give Luis Royo a view he'sone of my fav artists and his work is brilliant. Luis Royo (born in 1954 in Olalla, Spain) is a Spanish artist, known for his darkly sensual paintings of women and mechanical life forms. He has also recently started doing sculptures of some of his earlier art. He was born in Olalla, a small town near Teruel, Spain. He has produced many paintings for his own Books, and has also produced art for various other media: videogames, CD album covers, comic book covers, and Tarot cards. He is most famous for his work doing illustrations of Julie Strain for the animated movie Heavy Metal

WeT pUSsy.....

MiRroR........

I am the angel fallen from grace,
I am the devil with the teasing face.
I am the killer who hides in the shadows,
I am the victim whose skull is shattered.
Gaze into my eyes because most of all,
I am the mirror of all that you are.
................................................SeTh

sMiLe.......

cURSed

GOoD pOiNt....

Few things are harder to put up with than the annoyance of a good example.
.................................................................................[Mark Twain]

i KNoW iM In ShiT bABe ...lOVe yOu

Passions flaring
The physical craving
That tears me apart
To be with you
On you
Inside you
Endless nights
Of relentless lovemaking
Endless days
I can feel you
Up on top of me
Inside you
Grunts, moans
Cries
Sweet pain
Making love
To each other
For the rest of eternity

wASted...cONfuSed....aNytHing eLSe?

jEsUs....Pt 2

ChASiNG cARs......

ARTIST : Snow Patrol

SONG : Chasing Cars

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world

I don't quite know
How to say, how I feel
Those three words
'l say too much
But not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden
That's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes
They're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how is well
Just know that these things will never
Change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me
And just forget the world

jEsUs....

Errrrr..

tHe sTate oF Me......WorKIng On It thOUgH

have you ever felt like you don't know yourself after years of thinking you did? or maybe my paranoid mind is playing tricks on me an i really do know myself but just need to be reminded. Being in a place where all you see is people looking at you through blinker doesnt work for me. Being in this place kills me everyday. sometimes i dont know what to do, it leaves me so confussed about myself, but then again is the problem really with me or the people that have the problem with me or is it just nothing at all...and thats life it is always that nothing at all bit

"Gather round my wealthy friends
And endure the horrifying sights
Only your worst nightmares can produce
Actual human beings of a deformed nature
Come at once
And come and enduldge yourself
In our own twisted amusement of
Another's misfortune
Yes ladies and gentlemen
Enter our three ring show of freaks"

Paranoia
Paranoia is an unfounded or exaggerated distrust of others, sometimes reaching delusional proportions

Causes and symptoms
The exact cause of paranoia is unknown. Potential causal factors may be genetics, neurological abnormalities, changes in brain chemistry, and stress. Paranoia is also a possible side effect of drug use and abuse (for example, alcohol, marijuana, amphetamines, cocaine, PCP). Acute, or short term, paranoia may occur in some individuals overwhelmed by stress. The Diagnostic and Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders, fourth edition (DSM-IV), the diagnostic standard for mental health professionals in the United States, lists the following symptoms for paranoid personality disorder:

• suspicious; unfounded suspicions; believes others are plotting against him/her
  
• preoccupied with unsupported doubts about friends or associates
  
• reluctant to confide in others due to a fear that information may be used against him/her
  
• reads negative meanings into innocuous remarks
  
• bears grudges
  
• perceives attacks on his/her reputation that are not clear to others, and is quick to counterattack
  
• maintains unfounded suspicions regarding the fidelity of a spouse or significant other

LAsEr eYe........

iN mY eYEs....

In my eyes
you would see traces of darkness
Outlines of loneliness
And slivers of passion unleashed
In my eyes
You would see a salty sea
The waves would be frightening
The black water inviting
In my eyes
You would see a haunting
So dark and deep
That many look away in fear
In my eyes
You would see a fire raging
Ablaze with stifled passion
Awaiting your touch
In my eyes
If you look in them
And not through them
You would see forever.

oNE oF My fAv baNDs